Sometimes we sin for the dumbest reasons. Sometimes that smallest of sins can have a huge impact. The risks and consequences are grand while the rewards are beyond worthless. You know what I’m talking about because we have all been there. We have all done thing in our lives that we wish we could take back. Things we do in the moment out of pointless fear. We sin sometimes out on instinct. When we sin out of instinct it is because we have depended on the flesh more than we have God.
I had one of those stupid sin moments the other day. All sin moments are stupid, but some are just that more obvious kind of stupid. It was a lie. A simple lie that served no purpose except to save some face. Even after the lie I could not fathom my reason for doing so. It had no purpose. It was done in a moment of panic lead up by other moments of panic culminating in a dependence on my fleshly nature rather than God’s strength. It was met with a period of drain and discouragement, and if I could go back and do it all differently I would in a heartbeat. Life does not give us those kinds of options though, and so we must live with the consequences of our actions.
The consequences are shone through relationships and trust. It makes life irrevocably harder. You see, this is because sin always has a way of coming out. Satan would like you to think you can pull off your sin in secret, but it always has a way of showing itself. You always get shown for the fool you have been. You always come to learn that the consequences are more far reaching than you would have expected in the moment of doing the sin.
It all comes down to having depended on you rather than God. If you depend on yourself for the everyday things then you will likely depend on yourself during a moment of confusion or stress. We tell ourselves we will lean on God when we really need him, but we do not realize is that dependence on God requires practice.
It’s like a football team that practices two minute drills. They do not simply think they will get their act together when they need to during that kind of a situation. They practice to make sure they are prepared as they can be. The more they practice the more they will find the consistency of being in that situation in the first place is small.
Sin is just stupid. It is dumb thoughts followed by dumb actions. The tendency when caught in our sin is to beat ourselves up about it because it is when sin is recognized by someone else that we see the full extent of the stupidity in our actions. We are given a mirror and can see just how foolish and selfish we are. We become embarrassed, and wish so desperately to go back and change our decisions. It’s just not worth it. It’s not worth risking so much for nothing.
We need to stop expecting we will lean on God during the difficult times while depending on ourselves in all other situations. I hate the consequences of sin, but what I hate most is that my sin tells me how short I have come up in relying on God. When I sin I am telling God that I think I have found a better way out of a situation. I am telling Him that I don’t think I need him this time, but to try back later.
I think a lot of times we worry about the consequences of the big sins. We worry about things like pornography or murder. We forget the consequences of the sins we so wrongly view as smaller. There are consequences though. They eat away at you like any other sin. They damage your integrity as much as any other sin. They break trust. They are simply wrong.
Maybe you are reading this today and you can resonate with it. Maybe you are wondering, “Where do I go from here.” Well know you have one more person in that boat with you after reading this. I can’t tell you what you should do. All I can tell you is what I plan on doing next. I plan to move forward. I plan to move forward and be cautious form making the same mistake. I plan on being thankful that God forgives along with those I sin against. I plan to depend on God even more. I plan to rebuild.